17 August 2006

:: The break-up ::

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Finally, the show, The break-up started screening! i just went to watch the movie, which i have been waiting for months!!

It was kinda nice....not exactly the light-hearted romance comedy that you are hoping to see. Instead, you will experience lotsa squabbling and non-stop quarrels....almost everything....and little things. And somehow it kinda resembles the relationship i had with him in the first 2 years of our relationship. While Brooke sacrificed her time and made effort beyond her own expectations to please Gary, Gary took those for granted unknowingly and never had cared for her. They do things together..Oops...They do things according to what GARY wants and never had Gary offer to bring her to ballet, which is what she likes. So one day it got out of hand, and Brooke decided to call it quits. But they were still staying together in the same condo. So lotsa things happened and Gary realised how important Brooke is to him. So he tried to win her back.

While i was watching the show, i can't help but to relate it to myself. It was so similar! The issues between me and him, Brooke and Gary. It was good that in the end, both him and Gary realised the importance of the gal in their lives, showed their regrets and made an effort to make things better. hahaha.

There is this particular phrase by Brooke (Jennifer Ainston) to Gary (Vince Vaugh) that caught my attention: "I want you to want to do the dishes!" Then Gary replied "Why do i want to do the dishes!?!?" Sigh.. You see..Men don't see BEYOND the surface!! There are many times women hope their men can take their initiative to do things for them. But they can never get the hint! So often, he will say "i believe in communicating...just tell us what to do." BUT come on!!! If we were to tell u this and that, it wouldn't be the same anymore right? And that's what women hates. It should be come from your own willingness, from your own heart...coz then it showed that you bloody care enough to WANT to do the dishes or share any things! Sigh! Men just don't get it...do they?

Anyway, throughout the show, it just reminded me of those rough times we had together and the time when i really felt enough was enough. I even cried when Brooke broke down...when she had given up hope on Gary. I felt so much for her.

However, what was comforting is that...the man that sat next to me throughout, is still the same man who had gone thru all these shits together. Ooops, I beg your pardon, he's now a changed man.


Thank you, honey. Muacks.


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All rightey, gonna prepare for flight to Rome...Yay! love to be in Rome once again!
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It seems like many things happen to my friends lately...
Darren..please take care of yourself.
And Jenn, hope your injury is getting better and looking beautiful with each passing day.
Jacob...Forget about the bitches and think of Jenn and I, the beautiful princesses in your heart. If you can't find them, search harder and deeper in your heart!! Everything will be all right, all right???

Ciao!

09 August 2006

:: just feel like.... ::

Just feel like I'm in love again...
With the same person of course.
Sweet.

:: Christchurch, New Zealand adventure.::

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FrankFurt Pics:

Christchurch, New Zealand:
We took the TansAlpine train ride to a small town. The main attraction is the 9 hours scenic train ride (round trip). We passed by a lot of lovely scenery...the alps...the river...and valley....It was simply awesome. However, the cold was extremely unbearable. To take a good picture, you gotta go to the last cabin where there's no windows... Tell me, with a weather of about 10degrees and the constant wind blowing onto your face....how to take a pic??!?Especially when my hands turned numb once i took them out. Sigh...

We took another tour the next day. To a little town named Akaroa...if i'm not wrong i heard there're only about 800 or less residents. It was a lovely and a much worthwhile trip. Just 30bucks! We took a coach there. On our way to Akaroa, there were several attaction stops... The beach and the little workshop.
Went to the top of the mountain, overlooking the valley.
Then to Akaroa town.

Once upon a time, a man came to live on this island near the beach. He picked up a stone and ponder what he can do with it. By chance, he discovered he can polish them and sell. From then on, it has become his passion, his work, his life. The second picture showed this man and what he had picked up...the jaw of a whale!! He, ingeniously, made a wall out of these stones...

Some random pics...

At the top of the mountain, we had some complimentary warm wine...had a cup of coffee, mushroom pie and scone. Imagine...the cold weather...sitting inside a cafe on top of the mountain with a magnificent view over the valley...with clear blue skies....the aromatic smell of coffee and fresh air...delicious pie and scone. Nice.

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28 July 2006

:: emptiness ::

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Came back from Frankfurt. Bought some real german cheese sausages which i had two yesterday!! It was delicious!!! I did walk around Frankfurt but there ain't much things to look at anyway. Plus..it was so damn HOT that it made us sick. Just wanna get back to the hotel that's all.

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Feeling a bit...empty. Recently, just thinking about whether i should quit my job.
Lots of things in my mind.
*confused*
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Just heard from my ex, Eric, had a 4 month old son now!
I'm happy for him coz that was what he wanted. At least that was what he claimed when we were together last time.
Felt a little weird when he told me this after he started to message me in friendster suddenly...after so long of no contacting...
Hmm...??

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Broke the news to my parents. Dad seems a little more receptive while my mum is more like disappointed. Dad seems more understanding and pointed out some of his concerns for my future if i choose to carry on the relationship. I'm glad. But my mum.......... Sigh.

I feel like crying but tears just can't come out.
It takes time i know and i shouldn't be impatient, given the tricky situation.
Me, being me... just wanna be accepted in the family or even the society.
I knows some mindsets are difficult to change. And i would really appreciate it if fellow beings don't judge anyone based on superficial value. After all, who are you to judge? Is your race a more superior race? Is that what you think just because you are the majority here? And i simply don't understand why some people will detest others that does not come from their circle when they don't even know that person. Just coz of the difference in colour? And then they CONVENIENTLY succumb to the stereotype syndrome rather than knowing that person first before making a judgement. Isn't that a little.................shallow? I know there bound to have stereotypes, be is good or bad. But...at least be a little more open or receptive when an opportunity comes along? Why pass a judgement so fast?


He and i know that we need to make an extra mile...do alot more things in order to be accepted, as compared to others. He's very willing and is being very positive. Im so glad and relieved.

I just wish i have a easier time ahead.

I hope i have your blessings.

Sigh.
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Wonderful - By Everclear
Hey, ain't life wonderful? Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful...
Isn't everything wonderful now?"

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so bigI just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

NoNo, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
NoNo, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now...

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
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20 July 2006

:: Jaded ::

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Getting sick of meeting sick people or rather colleagues.
It kinda made me feel jaded about people. Generally.
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I hate ranks.
I hate people who pull their ranks.
I hate people who bring themselves higher by degrading others by using their pea-brain and foul mouth.
I hate bitches. Go home and sleep with snake. Deserve no respect at all.
YOU. i hope u see your karma soon.

AARGGGHH! Screw you. Bye.

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