Why me..?

this is entirely new to me.. I have known bloggers...i have seen their blogs. But i never understand why they want their inner thoughts to be read in public. i thought diaries are meant to be your own little secret, your own little world where you can paint the most beautiful skies or the most fairytale stories and you'll be safe in that little corner of your own. not being disturbed. not being laughed at your silly thoughts. so then i decide to find out why bloggers blog. here i am, penning down my thoughts.

perhaps on one will read, perhaps someone will chance upon it. just perhaps.

today. thursday.
mood. foul.
why. stress. extreme.
low morale::clueless::lonliness::helpless::aimless::

like a see-saw. often ups and downs. "what is it now again?" is the phrase i fear.
don't give on me. don't push me away.
for i will falter, for i will turn grey.
"beary hugs" i often say, "no-more" i often hear.

why me...? going on this rollercoaster ride.
save me.

only me. he says.