08 February 2007

:: 蜡烛 ::

奶奶, 您就好像是一支蜡烛 - 宁愿燃烧自己,带给周围的人光芒。

对不起, 我还没好好的去看您,您就走了。
我真的真的好后悔,没时常抽出时间去看您。还要您为我担心和操心。我真的很不应该。
可是,奶奶,我懂了,我知道该这么做了。 我真的懂了。
我真的真的好后悔。

心确实是很痛,说不出口的痛。 如果时间能从来,我一定不会这样。

奶奶,我真的好想您。。。

:: 奶奶 ::

奶奶 - that's how we have been addressing our beloved granny since we were born.

奶奶 just passed away last wednesday. 1st of Feb. Too sudden. Too unexpectedly. Everyone was devastated.

Wthin a year, both of my grandparents whom I was very close to, whom I have grown up with, left us. My 爷爷 passed away on the last day of feb (28th feb) last year while my 奶奶 on the 1st of feb.

My 奶奶 was a very remarkable woman and was the entire family's pillar of strength. I remembered she did not shed a tear when my 爷爷 passed away because she knew we would all break down if she broke down. So she tolerated and put on a brave front, often encouraging us, consoling us. She was seen occasionally tearing as she talked about my 爷爷 a few months after the event.

She's like that. She's those of kind of person who would put everything on her shoulder and give the best for her children, for her grandchildren, her own brothers and sisters, even her neighbours. She would listen patiently to your woes, and then counsel you. She's impartial too. She won't side you when you have done wrong just because you are her family. She has helped to patch many relatonships in the family. Sometimes when I faced some problems, I would rather talk to her.

I can't tell you how wonderful she is unless you have actually met her. My 奶奶 is very open-minded (than my mum!!) and is very advanced in terms of her mentality.

Go ask around my neighbourhood and you will realise how popular she is. Everyone knows her for her cheerfulness, her smiles and her optimism. She never like to trouble people but she'll bring joy to people around her. Her friends for over 70 years, kept telling us how wonderful she is.

Sigh. I really love her and I wanted her to witness my wedding. Sob.
Well, hope she is now reunited with my 爷爷 and travelling around the world.

We gave my 奶奶 a sea burial, just like my 爷爷, as they had requested when they were alive. On the day when we collected her ashes, we found that my 奶奶 has relics! Its a good sign for us! Four of them, one black, one green, one white...the other one im not sure. Anyway, we then proceeded to changi ferry terminal for the sea burial. After the burial, my cousin took a picture of the sky as it was beautiful and we then realised something. It was pretty cloudy actually. But at the area where we put our 奶奶's ashes, the clouds moved apart, and rays came shining down.

Well, it could be coincidental. But it sure felt good.

We were at the sea, behind those trees.


My 奶奶's relics.







I miss my 奶奶!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(