:: Dead man walking ::

I just came back from perth.
I got a SHOCK as i sat on the bus...on the way to the hotel.
I......I......I......feel like I'm a ghost....coz its a dead town!!!
Shops are all closed....NO ONE walking on the street...and we're talking about the CITY area!
This was my first time to Perth and i've heard about how relax, slow and nice this part of Aussie is... But i never really think it would be THIS empty. Looks a little scary...Then it reminded me of the Playstation game we used to play... "Resident Evil"! I started to imagine all the creatures pop out from nowhere and come after me.....YEEKS!!!

I msged Jenn, Louis and Jacob...crying for help in this dead city. These are their replies:

LOUIS: "You should be with me...I'm blackjacking!!"
(BLOODYHELL..he's in the casino in melbourne. Screw u.)

Jenn: "You should go to UWA...there's a market nearby..."
(okie folks, it was like 5.30pm...sun gonna set and its a freaking sunday. NOTHING is open!)

Jacob's reply: "Perth is nice what...you should go here.....there....."
(ya ya...again, its a SUNDAY!!!)

So anyway, i didn't waste no time. I met Jude, my secondary school mate for dinner. At last, i saw some signs of life!!! He drove me to a supermarket to get my breakfast for the next morning...only to realise there's nothing much to buy. So in the end, we decided to pop by his house later and made some sandwiches for my breakie. Before that, we head to....ermm....can't remember the name of the place... but its somewhere at the yatch marina... He reccommended the Fish & Chips. I decided to try..although i'm not a very fish person. The serving for the chips was damn huge..I'm full just by eating the chips. Heh.

He drove me around town ya..Been up to the King's park for an overview of the city...been to the Bell tower... I didn't get out of the car coz the chill is freezing my ass off! God! The weather was just nice in the afternoon but when darkness came, it was REALLY COLD!!!! And i only have one pathetic not-so-thick sweater. Then Mr. Jude said that was because Perth is a desert area. Temperature drops drastically when night falls. TELL ME EARLIER!!!! wahhahaaa...

That's about the trip in Perth. Thanks Jude...for showing me around!
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Yay! Last night met deaREST Jenn, Louis and Jacob for supper at Holland Village. I miss Jenn so much! Haven't seen her for erm....2 weeks? kekekkee...I miss flying with her...and its so glad to hear that she's enjoying her team flight. I wish i can fly with her soooooooooon...and stay in the same room...bitch, chat, or whatever!
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Here are some london pics while still waiting for that Louis to give me the rest...

At Kensington Park...


Silly Pics at Marks & Spencer and The Tube.

:: Changes ::

Yes, it is now saturday morning at 4.50am and i'm still wide awake.
Yes and you can see some changes in my blog. Change the outlook basically.
Thought it'll look brighter and fresher instead of the dark blackie one.
What do you think?
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Earlier in the afternoon, he brought me to one of the new shopping centre in JB. It was huge! But there ain't many apparrel shops...quite a disappointment. Nonetheless, i still bought 2 pieces of clothes. Hahahhaha!
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Changes.
I must say he did made lotsa changes for me. 360 degrees or even more.
I should be happy and enjoy the attention and concern that he is showering me now...after the long wait of 2 years......isn't it?
However, i found myself grumbling and feeling upset for the slightest thing he does. Why?
Isn't such changes good? Isn't this what i've been wishing and waiting for?
If so, why am I feeling like this?
I've been trying to ask myself and can't figure out why. And have been constantly reminding myself to be more tolerant and don't get irritated so easily.
I really wonder why. Like he said, when I'm not in town, I'd call him and sounded like I miss him alot. But when I'm in town, i treated him hot and cold. Why why why????
Has the passion faded? Has the fire gone? Or have we stuck in this stage for too long?
I really hope i'd buck up and get rid of this feeling soon!
But how?? Somebody tell me please?
Feel so guilty!!

It surely doesn't help when I'm still bothered by the family issue. They still didn't know.
I think i should break the news again...soon. REAL soon.

Talking about marriage.... it's quite scary at times to think about whether this person is the ONE for you and the ONE that you are going to spend with for the rest of your life. One wrong move and that's it. So....how do you know whether someone is THE ONE?
I mean I would like him to be THE ONE...but I'm also scared coz I wonder if everything would turn out fine during the marriage life.
How would one know??
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Came back from London 2 days ago. It was my first team flight. It was good.
It was nice to have someone you know on board.
Louis's friend brought us around and we had a really looooooong day.
Had breakfast in Marks & Spencer, went to Museum of Design, had lunch in a typical English restaurant, been up the London Eye(it was terribly HOT especially when we are trapped in the capsule in the summer!), ate at a lovely dessert restaurant, having some laughs at the Stand-up comedy club.

It was another marvellous london trip.
I swear I would head to Stonehenge and WIndsor Castle the next time when I go there.

As for the pics...I;m still waiting for Louis to send to me. L O U I S!!!!
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:: 100th day::

Last wednesday was my beloved grandpa's 100th day since his death.
Went for the prayers from 4pm to 10pm. It kinda rake up those emotions again.
Can't believe he was gone so fast. I tried very hard to fight back my tears.
I miss him. I miss you, yeye.

Around the same time, Ibrahim passed on before my grandpa. It reminded me of him too. Whenever i think of my grandpa, i'll think of ibrahim. Vice versa.
I miss him too.
Can't believe God take such a good guy away. But i'm sure he has greater plan for him.
I hope he is doing well. I miss having supper with him. I miss msning him.
I still have his number. I still have his msn nick. I still have his frenster account. I still go to his blog and drop messages.

:'(

:: KTV ::

At last! We finally went KTV!!
Sing! Sing! Sing!
La la la la la~ NICE!

:: New friend ::

A new found friend! Glad to know Junko on the flight to LAX. We hit it off pretty well and shared similar views. After we came back Singapore, she invited me for a one-for-one massage at Shaw centre. It was awesome!! Really felt relax and shiok!!
We chatted over coffee and learnt more of each other. She is really nice!
Then i realised she haven't tried any Ramen in Singapore! Well, i know one place where the chef is a japanese and the Ramen taste delicious at reasonable price. Without much hesitation, I brought her to the stall. At least, for now, whenever she feels home sick and craves for japanese food, she knows where to find. :p

Came to realised she haven't been to Night Safari too. Since the next few days are our rest days, I volunteered to bring her there on the same night. Boy, we had some fun! Seen lotsa animals on the tram!

Hope our friendship will continue to bloom! :)

:: Tokyo and Los Angeles ::

I was on the way to Los Angeles and hence got the chance to stop in Tokyo. It wasn't really a fantastic flight. It was average...oh wait, below average i guessed. Another colleague and I just did not feel right....as you would have known...we were the most junior there....and you all would have known how the company value "seniority".

Well, it is an asian organisation afterall. It comes with no surprise, isn't it? However, i just felt it was a little too much. Come on, gotta move on with times right? Perhaps its due to my background education or experience? I felt that respect NEEDS to be EARNED and not automatically credited by the numbers of years you are in a company or by your age. That is to say, in a typical asian culture, we are suppose to give them DUE RESPECT & not EARNED respect. Of coz, the basic respect must be there but it doesn't mean whatever you do is right and whatever i do is wrong. Because in that case, i don't see why i should respect someone with lousy character or performance or worse still, say remarks that are seriously subjective and hurtful. And guess what...? All these are just ways of pulling ranks and showing so-called power and authority. And what's making it worse is that, juniors don't have the right or power to clear the misjudge. All you can do is to apologise for a mistake which you think you have done nothing wrong and smile. Well, you can argue back and stand up for your own right. But that would make your senior colleagues unhappy. That's what one told me. I was like..inside my heart.."What!?!?" I guess that's just what life is about. Meeting many kinds of people and knowing how to deal with them. For sure, i met some very very very nice senior colleagues who deserves very much my respect. Well, as long as i understand what is wrong and what is right....i think i'm a much better person and above those people who belong to the old school of thoughts. Oops..these are just some of my thoughts as i was chatting to one of the crew on that flight.

And so...off i went to LA and spent a bomb....added a little boost to their economy. hahaha...but its fun to shop over there. The Holister was sooooooooooooooo nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't go sight seeing coz i've already been to Universal Studio and disney land.... i think i should do more research on where to go in LA next time. So that i can curb my spendings there!!! Was busy shopping so i didn't take any pictures. Hahhahaa..too bad!

And then it was Tokyo! My first time! One of the colleague and his local friend, Kae, brought us to the Fish Market near the Tsukiji metro station. It was indeed an eye opener. There all kinds of fish, big, small, weird looking fishes and sea creatures. hahhahah! It was fun! We ate somewhere near there too...where they usually serve FRESH seafood and fish like salmon, tuna and Sashimi. Eh..i seldom take fish...but i have no other choice coz they do not have chicken, mutton or anything meat there. And so they reccommended this grilled or baked Saba fish. I hesitated a while before decided to try. Amazingly...i like it!! It was SOOOO fresh and sweet and delicious!!!!!!!

I went to the Meiji shrine as well. It was pretty much similar to the shrine i went in Narita.


Oh ya...been to Ueno and helped my majesty to look for Arai helmets. It was pretty cheap there!! I think he will ask me to bring back some next time when i go there. Sheeesh!
The next stop i went was to Shinjuku. The shopping area!!!!! As i stepped out of the subway, i was completely lost! Coz the place is big and confusing!!! So many entrances and exits to the main station....each bringing you to a whole new location. Each time i make a turn, i forgot where i was. It was overwhleming. But it was fun exploring alone! Oh yes...and i finally get to eat Ramen in tokyo! I didn't buy much in Japan...mainly coz i felt i had over-spent in LA. Hahahaa...besides, the prices in Japan are in thousands in Yen....and it kinda make me feel "expensive" psychologically. As compared to US, it was like $15USD....$30USD......it looks cheaper...but in fact it is expensive once you convert it. Hahahahaa..


Towards the end of the flight, i really kinda miss home and wish to come back soon.
Now, i'm happy to be back in my safe haven. :P