:: emptiness ::

Came back from Frankfurt. Bought some real german cheese sausages which i had two yesterday!! It was delicious!!! I did walk around Frankfurt but there ain't much things to look at anyway. Plus..it was so damn HOT that it made us sick. Just wanna get back to the hotel that's all.

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Feeling a bit...empty. Recently, just thinking about whether i should quit my job.
Lots of things in my mind.
*confused*
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Just heard from my ex, Eric, had a 4 month old son now!
I'm happy for him coz that was what he wanted. At least that was what he claimed when we were together last time.
Felt a little weird when he told me this after he started to message me in friendster suddenly...after so long of no contacting...
Hmm...??
*******
Broke the news to my parents. Dad seems a little more receptive while my mum is more like disappointed. Dad seems more understanding and pointed out some of his concerns for my future if i choose to carry on the relationship. I'm glad. But my mum.......... Sigh.

I feel like crying but tears just can't come out.
It takes time i know and i shouldn't be impatient, given the tricky situation.
Me, being me... just wanna be accepted in the family or even the society.
I knows some mindsets are difficult to change. And i would really appreciate it if fellow beings don't judge anyone based on superficial value. After all, who are you to judge? Is your race a more superior race? Is that what you think just because you are the majority here? And i simply don't understand why some people will detest others that does not come from their circle when they don't even know that person. Just coz of the difference in colour? And then they CONVENIENTLY succumb to the stereotype syndrome rather than knowing that person first before making a judgement. Isn't that a little.................shallow? I know there bound to have stereotypes, be is good or bad. But...at least be a little more open or receptive when an opportunity comes along? Why pass a judgement so fast?

He and i know that we need to make an extra mile...do alot more things in order to be accepted, as compared to others. He's very willing and is being very positive. Im so glad and relieved.

I just wish i have a easier time ahead.

I hope i have your blessings.

Sigh.
*******
Wonderful - By Everclear
Hey, ain't life wonderful? Wonderful, wonderful, wonderful...
Isn't everything wonderful now?"

I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them

I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I laugh aloud so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so bigI just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

NoNo, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
NoNo, I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just want my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Some days I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now...

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now
*******

:: Jaded ::

Getting sick of meeting sick people or rather colleagues.
It kinda made me feel jaded about people. Generally.
*****

I hate ranks.
I hate people who pull their ranks.
I hate people who bring themselves higher by degrading others by using their pea-brain and foul mouth.
I hate bitches. Go home and sleep with snake. Deserve no respect at all.
YOU. i hope u see your karma soon.

AARGGGHH! Screw you. Bye.

*****

:: JaO JaO PeeO PeeO ::

JaO JaO PeeO PeeO.
JIBBERISH! These were what I've picked up from my irritating-yet-adorable team boy. Damn. So easily influenced! DArn you Louis.
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Came back from Hong Kong and Sans Francisco. And i must say...I'd WHALE of a GOOD TIME!! Woohooo!!! Eat and shop eat and shop! And Snap Snap Snap!! Oh..I learnt some techniques of photography from Louis...the pro pro photographer.
Flights were tough. But i kept myself going by looking forward to the places i wanna to go once i reached there. It's worth it. It's worth it!!!Totally!

Hong Kong. My First time. Though didn't really been to much sight-seeing places, kinda enjoy myself at the peak, taking the ferry to hong kong island... eating at the small joints....eating Dim Sum and SHOPPING!!!! Louis and I spent one whole freaking day at Causeway Bay shopping!! OMG! Oh ya..something worth mentioning:

Louis is always in dark colours...mainly brown and black...and still is i guess. I didn't figure out what was wrong with that until I forced him to wear a PINK tee-shirt which i so god-damn-love. And he looked entirely different!!! So refreshing and vibrant!!!!!! And guess what he did?? HIDE behind the door of the fitting room!! coz he was so SHY about wearing a bright or rather a pinkie shirt!? And kept saying its gayish no MATTER HOW MANY TIMES i assured him! Tried to pull him outta fitting room but he freaked out once he saw people outside. NOW that's what i called Girlie! Let me show u the pic!! Doesn't he looks so much nicer, without that expression of course!?!

Pictures taken in Hong Kong:Streets of Hong Kong

MTR Ride, Cable Car ride and Ferry Ride

Kowloon Park & The Peak

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Sans Francisco. Though i have been there several years ago, it felt entirely different this time. The weather was perfect. Birds flying around..clear blue sky...People are nice.... Summer. Nice.
We rented a car and travelled to Napa Valley, a small town where there are many vineyards. Before heading to a particular vineyard, we drop by Muir Woods, a national park.

Then we went to Robert Mondavi vineyard/winery. Had a small tour there..and it was an eye opener. I learnt how to differentiate the different variety of grapes...how the grapes were slowly processed into wine....Of coz, we had some wine tasting. Splendid. Oh...and bought a bottle of cabernet savignon, the specialty of Robert Mondavi, for Daniel.

After a day of travelling, we went back hotel and continue to shop! Almost went berserk in Abercrombie. Felt like buying the whole shop. Hahaha...Damn..why is it so expensive!!! In the end, i had to really think hard to choose the ones i wanna buy. And louis wasn't there to STOP ME!!! (oh well, we lost control when we went back Hong Kong...)
Anyway, the next day we went sight-seeing..He brought along his "Tua Leng Gong" aka his big long SLR camera. Went to Lompard street and fisherman's wharf. Had a cruise ride around Alcatrax island. And he taught me several techniques on the camera. Wow..really an enriching trip indeed! The weather was lovely lovely lovely.

I'M LOVING IT!!!

:: abu abu abu dhabiiii ::

I had a super looong stay in Abu Dhabi, the capital of the UAE last week.
I tried searching online the places to sightsee...but to my dismay, not much info was found. WHAT A SHAME!! Instead, what pops out most were those places in Dubai...which is a good 2hr taxi ride from Abu Dhabi..and cost about 70SGD (one way). Wanted to go over Dubai as Jenn was there at the same time. But the taxi fare was too steep for us... So we stayed put.

Roy, my leading, called me up early in the morning. We had buffet breakfast downstairs and had a suuuuper long chat...from 9am all the way till 2pm! It was nice...and ya..i think i know his family and his life pretty well now. He's such a jovial person..not only he made me laughed, he made the waitresses there laughed as well. Basically, he just makes everyone at ease. He just couldn't stop talking. Over at dinner one night with other colleagues and pilots, the captain challenged him to try stop talking for a minute. Ha..He just couldn't do it. Hahahaa...
So anyway, Roy accompanied to do some sight-seeing after i found out from the conceirge what's interesting here. They do have some desert tours... And so we took up one of them.

We went to the sand dunes by Toyota LandCruiser....and we literally crrruuuuisssse on the sand!! We went up and down the dunes in the Jeep! It was like a roller coaster ride and I'M LOVING IT!!! Now I'm even MORE SURE i will get a Jeep next time!!!Woohooo...

After that adventure in the sand, we were taken to a "base camp" where we have several activities there. I tried on the arabian women costumes... tried to do the sand boarding but end up stucking there and ate lotsa sand!!! Rode a camel as well..but not for very long... And lastly we had our dinner there. The typical arabian food...It was excellent!!! What a tiring night!

For the next 2 days, i just went out shopping at the mall. (yes....again??) Coz they are having sale there! (dun bullshit lah Val..that's just excuses). But but.....oh well... There's nothing to do over there anyway...

(yah yah..you brought your swimming costumes u could have swam...brought your laptop n could at least update your blog?)

Oooops!!!

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:: Nanjing ::

Aarrgh!!! My Argentina lost!!! The referee is really such a jackass!! But it's a no wonder anyway coz the Germans are in their own country. Its so unfair!! My blood almost boiled when the referee made several unfair judgement. Aargh!! To make things worse, BRASIL is OUT!!!!! Oh my god! What's there to watch now??? However, what made me feel a little better is that ENGLAND is out!! HAhahahhahaa!!!

Anyway, been back from Nanjing..2 weeks ago.. It was really a nice and fruitful trip. Even though i have been to most of the places before, it's always different when you re-visit it again after a few years. This time round, i learnt more of the china's history than before. It's really interesting to know what happened in the past and how certain beliefs or culture came about. I guess that's what travelling is all about! Isn't it?

Highlights of the trip:

Dr Sun Yat Sen's Mausoleum


There are about 392 steps all together up to where he is buried. Why the number? Coz at the time he passed away, there were about these millions of citizens in China. Who is Dr Sun Yat Sen? He's the one who over threw the dynasty...and build the republic of China....until the communist took over. He then fled to Taiwan and build the empire there. According to the tour guide, he told me that Dr Sun had came to this mountain before and in terms of the chinese Feng Shui beliefs, this is an excellent place. Hence, it had been said that he wanted to bury here when he passed away.

Ming's Tomb

Now, what many people know is that there are many tombs from the Ming dynasty found in Beijing. What you may not know is that the very FIRST emperor of the Ming dynasty "Zhu Yuan Zhang" is buried here in Nanjing. Yes..just a stone throw away from Dr Sun's Mausoleum.
Now this pic shows a creature made up of a dragon's head, tortise's body, snake's tail and phoneix's claw. According to the guide, he said that this is a very bad creature, son of a King of Sea (Hai Long Wang), who had done many bad deeds. With the emperor's tablet on top of this bad creature, it symbolises that no matter how bad the creature is, the emperor is still more powerful.

Nanjing Massarcre


You wouldn't believe how many chinese were killed during this massacre. 20million!! That's 5 times that of Singaporeans now!!! These 3 sculptures represented how some of them were tortured..Buried alive.... small children were killed....women being raped....

This museum actually displayed the actual victim's bones. This place, in fact, was one of the buried location. Victims were buried layers by layers, one on top of another, separated by sand. Excavation was done during the early 80's.... It is believed that there were much more buried beneath where we walked...

QingHuai River

I love walking along this street beside the river. It is also here where you can find the Confusious's temple. Most of the buildings here were actually brothels in the past.... where many scholars or the upper class of the society like to visit..They weren't exactly prostitudes...more like the "Geisha" in Japan.

I'm LOVING it!!