:: Nose blocked or Blocked nose? //// Sweet nothings ::

Whatever! nose blocked or blocked nose!! I'm having this stupid shit for the longest time EVER!!! More than a week!?!?!?! And i even have difficulty in breathing!! Especially in air-con room....always have to inhale deeply..and it doesn't help when the air-con in the BLOODY classroom is fucking freezing cold! Why on earth would they want the temperature so low even when the sky is dark and pouring like cats and dogs outside?!?!!? They think they have big fat money so can splurge on this useless-making-people-can't-breathe AIR-CONDITIONER!?!?!?!?!?

Besides, this pain-in-the-ass blocked nose or nose blocked is making me losing my appetite!!! Coz ONCE AGAIN, i can't even breathe when im eating as i need my MOUTH TO FUCKING BREATHE!!

AARRRGHH!!!!
And i sound so nasal whenever i speak that i hated myself. There is this irritating inner voice to ask me to SHUT-THE-FUCK-UP whenever i talk. i can't even stand THAT NASAL sound produced by my vocal organs of a vertebrate.

ok. Enough said. *shut up*
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By the way, i've received some little gifts from my friends...made me kinda feel bad that i didn't get them anything coz i didn't have the time to.... *bad bad val*

Anyway, here's what they give me.

This is what LOUIS gave us. Don't see this small small and you think nothing of it. Its damn bloody useful ok! He's so sweeeeeet and buy for all of us as we all need to use this for our Staff Pass. Now, i'll bring it wherever i work next time, around the world. Isn't it sweeeeeet?

JENNIFER gave us this cute little bottle filled with chocolates! And it was my favourite milk chocolate! It tasted especially sweet coz it's from her! Amidst the revision for the test, she made an effort to get all of us this little gift of love. This, not just left my tastebuds sweet, but also my heart!

This set is what our darling colleagues from india gave us. SABAA, UTTARA, RAJASI & AFSHAAN. So lovely, isn't it? Didn't expect it at all! They are really a bunch of fun-loving, crazy and lovely gals. And this will gift keep me smelling sweeeeet all the time!

Now, ladies and gentlemen... this is one of the sweetest gift i've received! Its from none other than my forever-beautiful-gorgeous sista CHERYL! Although it looks like a simple photo frame, its not just any ordinary photo frame with oridinary photos... Its a collage of those significant events that she and i have spent our 7 years of friendship together. From entering the uni to going to Sweden for our student exchange program to our travels around europe to the expedition trip to Cambodia and finally our convocation! Our sistahood, just like good wines, become deeper and richer as the time goes by. And i hope this precious and special bond between us will continue to grow....

I love u guys for those sweet little things.

*Hugs & Kisses*

:: that day::

Dear Santa,

I only wish for one thing and I hope i'm not too late.
**I wish for that day to come soon.**

2006 resolutions?? Haven't gave it a serious tots but here is the draft...

* A happy val with no worries
* A happy family
* A happy ending
* Earn more money to fulfill all other hidden agendas (hiak hiak)
* Collect more postcards and badges from around the globe.
* Adopt a child from third world country
* World peace
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All things happened for a reason i guess. The difference is how u will deal with it.
Shits happen but that's life. How u want the shit to be cleaned up all depends on how u see it and how u cleanse it. So that everyone will be convinced and be happy about it.

But how to ensure everyone is happy? someone has to take the rap, be finger-pointed or change completely in order for the majority rest to be happy? But why?? why can't everyone NOT be superficial and have different perspectives when looking at the same thing? Why judge when you dun even know something? What makes them think they know all things unless u are the almighty one? What makes them think everyone who have the same superficial characteristics are the same? And even though if someone think he/she has experience the so-called same encounters, does it mean its the same for everyone across the world? Sure there are some general characteristics but are there no room for exceptions? Or they just can't be bothered at all coz its always convenient to generialise things than to slowly find out the unique traits of everyone? If that's the cause of all disputes and controversies, then why didn't god make everyone the same? Aren't we suppose to see things beyond the first layer? I thought that's what differentiates men from other beings?

And so what if we all have different faiths...? Since when did faith told us to divide ourselves? I always thought the most beautiful thing in this world is the presence of diversity . So many different things in life... so many perspectives...so many different sides... Its a never-ending road of learning...its a never-ending road of beautiful surprises... its a never-ending road of wonderment. So why put a dead-end to it?

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Why some people close to my heart...still perceive as someone i'm completely not?
I don't say doesn't mean i am not.
Perhaps i have my reasons for doing so?
Perhaps i dunno how to react?
Perhaps its my way of not wanting them to worry?
Perhaps i have changed but u just perpetually think i'm still the same?
Perhaps they dun understand me at all?
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I've heard some words... that saddened me. It just pierced thru my heart.
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Should i be someone that everyone wants from me?
So, tell me your ideal Val.

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:: lazy Biatch ::

I am such a lazy BIATCH.
((BIATCH is defined as bitch by batch 853))

My hair spray has finished but i'm too lazy to move my ass downstairs to get one. It has become my daily necessity now and how i hate that bloody shit of bottle!!!

Btw, days has been filled with activities and tiredness become part of my daily body routine. Once the clock strikes 10, my body starts to collapse...my eyelids become heavy and my body turns soft.... and then i'll find my way to the bloody bed even with those extra-pounds eyes closed.

Talking abt activities... these batch gals are so bloody fun-loving and always full of laughter when with them. Bitching has become a part of the bonding session...and everyone just have a good laugh and then get over with it. They are such a party animals that sometimes i wonder where do those energy come from.

In short, I'm loving it!

:: emptiness ::

Have u ever felt the emptiness even though u have someone with u?
Have u ever felt disconnected even though u have someone else's hand to hold?
Have u ever felt lonesome even though he's right next to u?

What does that mean?
I dunno.
Haven't i done enough? Haven't I tried hard?
Or was it a case of "can't-be-bothered" or was it a case of insensitivity?
Or rather have u taken me for granted?

Whatever it is, the point is - are you with me?
Physically, emotionally and spiritually?
Were u there when i needed you?
Or were you just happen to be there when u r free and only when "feel like it"?

How would it feel when sweet nothings were delivered to u and was acknowledged by non-chalence?
How would it feel when u said u missed me and my best reply was simply no response?

Are u here with me?
Can we still hear and follow each other's heartbeats?

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i'm not looking for someone to talk to,
I've got my friends,
I'm more than ok,
I've got more than a girl could wish for,
I live my dream,
But it's not all they say.

Still i believe
I'm missing something real.
I need someone who really sees me

Don't wanna wake up alone anymore,
Still believing you'll walk through my door,
All i need is to know it's for sure,
That i'll give
All the love in the world.

I've often wondered if loves an illusion,
Just to get you through,
The loneliest days,
I can't criticize it,
I had no expectation,
My imagination just stole me away

Still i believe
I'm missing something real.
I need someone who really sees me

Don't wanna wake up alone anymore,
Still believing you'll walk through my door,
All i need is to know it's for sure,
That i'll give
All the love in the world.

Love's for a lifetime,
Not for a moment,
So how could i throw it away?
Yea, but i'm only human,
And nights were colder,
With no one to love me that way.

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:: down down down ::

I'm down with the bloody sickening most-irritating-marthafucking-idiotic-never-seem-stop-dripping FLU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KNN!!!!!