:: that day::

Dear Santa,

I only wish for one thing and I hope i'm not too late.
**I wish for that day to come soon.**

2006 resolutions?? Haven't gave it a serious tots but here is the draft...

* A happy val with no worries
* A happy family
* A happy ending
* Earn more money to fulfill all other hidden agendas (hiak hiak)
* Collect more postcards and badges from around the globe.
* Adopt a child from third world country
* World peace
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All things happened for a reason i guess. The difference is how u will deal with it.
Shits happen but that's life. How u want the shit to be cleaned up all depends on how u see it and how u cleanse it. So that everyone will be convinced and be happy about it.

But how to ensure everyone is happy? someone has to take the rap, be finger-pointed or change completely in order for the majority rest to be happy? But why?? why can't everyone NOT be superficial and have different perspectives when looking at the same thing? Why judge when you dun even know something? What makes them think they know all things unless u are the almighty one? What makes them think everyone who have the same superficial characteristics are the same? And even though if someone think he/she has experience the so-called same encounters, does it mean its the same for everyone across the world? Sure there are some general characteristics but are there no room for exceptions? Or they just can't be bothered at all coz its always convenient to generialise things than to slowly find out the unique traits of everyone? If that's the cause of all disputes and controversies, then why didn't god make everyone the same? Aren't we suppose to see things beyond the first layer? I thought that's what differentiates men from other beings?

And so what if we all have different faiths...? Since when did faith told us to divide ourselves? I always thought the most beautiful thing in this world is the presence of diversity . So many different things in life... so many perspectives...so many different sides... Its a never-ending road of learning...its a never-ending road of beautiful surprises... its a never-ending road of wonderment. So why put a dead-end to it?

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Why some people close to my heart...still perceive as someone i'm completely not?
I don't say doesn't mean i am not.
Perhaps i have my reasons for doing so?
Perhaps i dunno how to react?
Perhaps its my way of not wanting them to worry?
Perhaps i have changed but u just perpetually think i'm still the same?
Perhaps they dun understand me at all?
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I've heard some words... that saddened me. It just pierced thru my heart.
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Should i be someone that everyone wants from me?
So, tell me your ideal Val.

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