:: Nose blocked or Blocked nose? //// Sweet nothings ::

Whatever! nose blocked or blocked nose!! I'm having this stupid shit for the longest time EVER!!! More than a week!?!?!?! And i even have difficulty in breathing!! Especially in air-con room....always have to inhale deeply..and it doesn't help when the air-con in the BLOODY classroom is fucking freezing cold! Why on earth would they want the temperature so low even when the sky is dark and pouring like cats and dogs outside?!?!!? They think they have big fat money so can splurge on this useless-making-people-can't-breathe AIR-CONDITIONER!?!?!?!?!?

Besides, this pain-in-the-ass blocked nose or nose blocked is making me losing my appetite!!! Coz ONCE AGAIN, i can't even breathe when im eating as i need my MOUTH TO FUCKING BREATHE!!

AARRRGHH!!!!
And i sound so nasal whenever i speak that i hated myself. There is this irritating inner voice to ask me to SHUT-THE-FUCK-UP whenever i talk. i can't even stand THAT NASAL sound produced by my vocal organs of a vertebrate.

ok. Enough said. *shut up*
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By the way, i've received some little gifts from my friends...made me kinda feel bad that i didn't get them anything coz i didn't have the time to.... *bad bad val*

Anyway, here's what they give me.

This is what LOUIS gave us. Don't see this small small and you think nothing of it. Its damn bloody useful ok! He's so sweeeeeet and buy for all of us as we all need to use this for our Staff Pass. Now, i'll bring it wherever i work next time, around the world. Isn't it sweeeeeet?

JENNIFER gave us this cute little bottle filled with chocolates! And it was my favourite milk chocolate! It tasted especially sweet coz it's from her! Amidst the revision for the test, she made an effort to get all of us this little gift of love. This, not just left my tastebuds sweet, but also my heart!

This set is what our darling colleagues from india gave us. SABAA, UTTARA, RAJASI & AFSHAAN. So lovely, isn't it? Didn't expect it at all! They are really a bunch of fun-loving, crazy and lovely gals. And this will gift keep me smelling sweeeeet all the time!

Now, ladies and gentlemen... this is one of the sweetest gift i've received! Its from none other than my forever-beautiful-gorgeous sista CHERYL! Although it looks like a simple photo frame, its not just any ordinary photo frame with oridinary photos... Its a collage of those significant events that she and i have spent our 7 years of friendship together. From entering the uni to going to Sweden for our student exchange program to our travels around europe to the expedition trip to Cambodia and finally our convocation! Our sistahood, just like good wines, become deeper and richer as the time goes by. And i hope this precious and special bond between us will continue to grow....

I love u guys for those sweet little things.

*Hugs & Kisses*

:: that day::

Dear Santa,

I only wish for one thing and I hope i'm not too late.
**I wish for that day to come soon.**

2006 resolutions?? Haven't gave it a serious tots but here is the draft...

* A happy val with no worries
* A happy family
* A happy ending
* Earn more money to fulfill all other hidden agendas (hiak hiak)
* Collect more postcards and badges from around the globe.
* Adopt a child from third world country
* World peace
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All things happened for a reason i guess. The difference is how u will deal with it.
Shits happen but that's life. How u want the shit to be cleaned up all depends on how u see it and how u cleanse it. So that everyone will be convinced and be happy about it.

But how to ensure everyone is happy? someone has to take the rap, be finger-pointed or change completely in order for the majority rest to be happy? But why?? why can't everyone NOT be superficial and have different perspectives when looking at the same thing? Why judge when you dun even know something? What makes them think they know all things unless u are the almighty one? What makes them think everyone who have the same superficial characteristics are the same? And even though if someone think he/she has experience the so-called same encounters, does it mean its the same for everyone across the world? Sure there are some general characteristics but are there no room for exceptions? Or they just can't be bothered at all coz its always convenient to generialise things than to slowly find out the unique traits of everyone? If that's the cause of all disputes and controversies, then why didn't god make everyone the same? Aren't we suppose to see things beyond the first layer? I thought that's what differentiates men from other beings?

And so what if we all have different faiths...? Since when did faith told us to divide ourselves? I always thought the most beautiful thing in this world is the presence of diversity . So many different things in life... so many perspectives...so many different sides... Its a never-ending road of learning...its a never-ending road of beautiful surprises... its a never-ending road of wonderment. So why put a dead-end to it?

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Why some people close to my heart...still perceive as someone i'm completely not?
I don't say doesn't mean i am not.
Perhaps i have my reasons for doing so?
Perhaps i dunno how to react?
Perhaps its my way of not wanting them to worry?
Perhaps i have changed but u just perpetually think i'm still the same?
Perhaps they dun understand me at all?
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I've heard some words... that saddened me. It just pierced thru my heart.
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Should i be someone that everyone wants from me?
So, tell me your ideal Val.

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:: lazy Biatch ::

I am such a lazy BIATCH.
((BIATCH is defined as bitch by batch 853))

My hair spray has finished but i'm too lazy to move my ass downstairs to get one. It has become my daily necessity now and how i hate that bloody shit of bottle!!!

Btw, days has been filled with activities and tiredness become part of my daily body routine. Once the clock strikes 10, my body starts to collapse...my eyelids become heavy and my body turns soft.... and then i'll find my way to the bloody bed even with those extra-pounds eyes closed.

Talking abt activities... these batch gals are so bloody fun-loving and always full of laughter when with them. Bitching has become a part of the bonding session...and everyone just have a good laugh and then get over with it. They are such a party animals that sometimes i wonder where do those energy come from.

In short, I'm loving it!

:: emptiness ::

Have u ever felt the emptiness even though u have someone with u?
Have u ever felt disconnected even though u have someone else's hand to hold?
Have u ever felt lonesome even though he's right next to u?

What does that mean?
I dunno.
Haven't i done enough? Haven't I tried hard?
Or was it a case of "can't-be-bothered" or was it a case of insensitivity?
Or rather have u taken me for granted?

Whatever it is, the point is - are you with me?
Physically, emotionally and spiritually?
Were u there when i needed you?
Or were you just happen to be there when u r free and only when "feel like it"?

How would it feel when sweet nothings were delivered to u and was acknowledged by non-chalence?
How would it feel when u said u missed me and my best reply was simply no response?

Are u here with me?
Can we still hear and follow each other's heartbeats?

*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
i'm not looking for someone to talk to,
I've got my friends,
I'm more than ok,
I've got more than a girl could wish for,
I live my dream,
But it's not all they say.

Still i believe
I'm missing something real.
I need someone who really sees me

Don't wanna wake up alone anymore,
Still believing you'll walk through my door,
All i need is to know it's for sure,
That i'll give
All the love in the world.

I've often wondered if loves an illusion,
Just to get you through,
The loneliest days,
I can't criticize it,
I had no expectation,
My imagination just stole me away

Still i believe
I'm missing something real.
I need someone who really sees me

Don't wanna wake up alone anymore,
Still believing you'll walk through my door,
All i need is to know it's for sure,
That i'll give
All the love in the world.

Love's for a lifetime,
Not for a moment,
So how could i throw it away?
Yea, but i'm only human,
And nights were colder,
With no one to love me that way.

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:: down down down ::

I'm down with the bloody sickening most-irritating-marthafucking-idiotic-never-seem-stop-dripping FLU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

KNN!!!!!

:: grown out ::

just dun understand how some people can club for years & still find it fun.
just dun understand how some people can withstand the usual stuff in the club.
just dun understand how some people can club for ALL occassions, be it xmas, new year, hari raya, deepavali or birthdays.
just dun understand how some people can stand standing/sitting thru the smoky nite.
just dun understand how some people choose to intoxicate themselves.
YEARS AFTER YEARS?

hmm.... why?
they have no other better things to do?
they want to feel "popular"?
they think its "in"?
please enlighten me. really can't seem to understand.

why dun they feel bored after so long? doing the same thing for so long?

I thought its just a passing phase of life. Occassionally its fine...but every week or even monthly?
hmm... perhaps its just me. I've grown out of it after having tasted the clubbing life for a while. Dun enjoy it as much anymore. Maybe its the age which has seem to catch up on me? Knowing there are more and better things to do and we're running short of time?

no offence, clubbers. Just a harmless thought.

:: Dragostea Din Tei ::

Saw this clip somewhere & finds it funny... Just wanna share!
-> Click here to enjoy! he sure knows how to dance, boy!

This is the romanian lyrics if u wanna have a karaoke session....IF u must...:p

Chorus 1 (repeat 4x)
Ma-ia-hii Ma-ia-huu Ma-ia-ha Ma-ia-haha

Verse 2
Alo, Salut, sunt eu, un haiduc,
Si te rog, iubirea mea, primeste fericirea.
Alo, alo, sunt eu Picasso,
Ti-am dat beep, si sunt voinic,
Dar sa stii nu-ti cer nimic.

Chorus 3 (repeat 2x)
Vrei sa pleci dar nu-mã, nu-mã iei,
Nu-mã, nu-ma iei, nu-mã, nu-mã, nu-mã iei.
Chipul tãu si dragostea din tei,
Mi-amintesc de ochii tãi.

Verse 4
Te sun, sã-ti spun, ce simt, acum,
Alo, iubirea mea sunt eu, fericirea.
Alo, alo, sunt iarasi eu, Picasso
Ti-am dat beep si sunt voinic
Dar sã stii, nu-ti cer nimic.

Repeat 3, 1 and 3
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And then i found this website that contains the collections of other copycats!Enjoy~

:: i am who i am ::

I got this link from Mokie's blog...hmm... sums it all...believe what you want to believe for I am who I am. Your Birthdate: April 6!!!!

You tend to be a the rock in relationships - people depend on you. Thoughtful and caring, you often put others needs first. You aren't content to help those you know... you want to give to the world. An idealist, you strive for positive change and dream about how much better things could be. Your strength: Your intuition Your weakness: You put yourself last Your power color: Rose Your power symbol: Cloud Your power month: June -> LEO? Any Leos??? :p

:: johnnie walker ::

Johnnie i am not... a walker i am on 15th nov.
Have been hoping, wanting, yearning and waiting to go to the newly built attraction in MacRitchie Reservoir...And have been bugging (& i REALLY mean BUG!) him to go since god-knows-when. Finally, on the fateful day of 15th Nov (yes & it gotta be one day before my first of work.... what the fuck hell!), he decided to "ok, today i feel like going...let's go!"

With such great anticipation & enthusiasm, we began to check out the map. Bloody Hell !!! Its a freaking 4km (from where we parked) walk in the nature to the tree top and 4km back!!! A total of about 8km!? And the tree top walk is only 250m!!!!! Haha~ but well, being stubborn Val, i decided to go ahead with it even though i'm not properly dressed & yes, RIGHT at 12PM on the dot! God knows why i wore a fucking slippers that day!

What greeted me at the start of the nature walk were my lovely monkeys!!! So Kawaii!!! i just have a thing with monkeys!!! too bad, didn't manage to take a picture with them. And so....we walk and walk and walk.... Bloody hell....4km! no wonder my toes got blisters and was bleeding!!!
My painful & fatigue legs manage to bring me to the tree top ultimately. So glad they didn't break and run away! It was AWESOME! Enjoyed the view...totally! BUT the thought of walking 4km back just ruin my mood!! i was so fucking hot and tired!!!!

What a way to start my first day of work the next day! And guess what!? The next day, my legs really hurt like mad and my blister on my toes were so painful and i still have to wear those DARN heels!! I just feel like shit!!!

::super duper::

Had quite a long day yesterday...
Was having lunch at suntec and picked him up from there. We then proceed to Changi to sign the deed. Speaking of this, he was complaining that he had to miss that new condo opening in order to help me on this. Feeling guilty and yet angry at the same time. hahaha! Guilty that he had to miss the opportunity because of me....but angry coz he made me feel guilty!! hhahahaa~ of course, i had inform him of the event much earlier and he agreed to it, forgeting about the new opening. Oh well...!

And then i became a "driver", driving around to help him run some errands...Fetch my grandparents and father from the hospital...Not long after i got home, i went downHolland Village to meet one of my good old fren, Mr. Mok. We had a loooooooong chat and i almost vomitted blood, 10 times i suppose. Rake up some past events and some past people. kekekeke....Dug out even more juicy stuff!!!! Gossips aside, we shared with each other some of our values and perspectives on certain things...Though we may not totally agree with each other (that's where the debate & vomitting started), I must say, i learn quite a bit from him.
Oh...and while chatting for such a long time, we drank a bit...And i guess that's what causes my headache!!! Haven't drank for a while and that bit...just made me sick!! LOUSY POK!!!!!!!

Overall, it was a splendid dinner (thanks mok...for the treat! the Sausages are nice ya....*wink*)

Oh..that's not the end... Went over to a fren's place. They were watching a Jap animae halfway....My god!What the hell was that!!??!!? It was about some guys and girls in a school, and it seemed that there were some raping and molesting going on...And the animae showed in great detail!! the girls are naked and the way the guy fonder and caress the bodies...their expressions....were so explicit!!! OMG!!

yea...that was my day yesterday ~

:: The dark side ::

It has been ages since i last saw myself in dark hair. Come to think of it...close to 5 years...or more? So anyway, i have to get the colour done sooner or later for the job.... so, eagerly and yet reluctantly, i crawled to orchard to look for my all-time hair-stylist.
crawling to orchard...

My hair stylist was surprised (and so do i) to know that i wanna colour my hair dark. Haha~
"okay, got it. Leave it to me." he said as usual. And so i left my precious strands in his hands confidently, knowing he won't ruin my darling.

After an hour, it was done. wow...i thought what i saw was pretty refreshing. I always thought dark hair look unfavourable on me, but somehow, i felt otherwise for now. For the past few years, i had done enough damages to my hair i guess... thinking back, i had it permed twice, bleach with all kinds of colour - ash, light brown, greenish yellow, etc..... Now i'm back to the basic...and it looked....okay. i hope. Thanks to my new job, i do not have to spend unneccessary money on the colouring anymore and my torn-and-worn-out strands can finally try to recover from the colour wars....

eeerr....let's just hope i won't be sick of the dark colour soon...As for now, i like what i'm seeing. Join the dark side, people. :p

::...::

Yes, i have been enjoying the free time i have for a month now. It feels great but sure it didn't when i realised my savings has been depleting... *darn* So i'll be back to the workforce, contributing to the statistics again on 16th Nov. Another exciting part of my life...can't wait to start but yet can't bear to leave this freedom i'm having now. Contradictions....yet again.

Oh well...probably i should start to fight and declare war against the procrastinating monster.... GET GOING VAL!!!!

:: Wisdom::

What's so good about wisdom?
I've got it (all of them!) and its getting on my nerves!! LITERALLY!!!!

Fucking shit...its so god damn painful now!!! To think i can even tolerate for months! And i even sacrifice the whole month to my company..just so i could finish the project and then go for my operation....The condition got worsen and i'm in pain!!!!!!!!!


















Somebody save me......Buy me the above....... *ouch*

::Digimagicians::

30th Sept!
This marks the end of my stay in Digimagic, my first company after graduation!
Although it was only a short stay, I've enjoyed my fellow digimagicians' company..And i do learnt a lot from them as well! They are so sweet and fun-loving....i wish and i hope my next colleagues would be as fun as them! Gonna miss them!!!
Picture says a thousand words..so here's a pic to show how funloving they are!!



















They even bought me a wallet as a farewell gift! I'm so touched!! As i was still rushing for some work, i haven't got the chance to buy or write anything to them...*sob*









And then that sneaky Yvonne, slotted a note into the wallet, without my knowing. She's always full of surprises...and yea..Yvonne, I love you too!!! *muacks*

All right...before i start looking for other jobs and worry about being unemployed, i better have my well-deserved break and enjoy the freedom while it last....*phew*

::Mr and Mrs::

On 10th September, a good brother of mine, is officially attached, married in the eyes of law to be exact.
Congrats bro! And welcome Christine....Mrs Chow from now on... hahhahaha~

Anyway, this good bro of mine called me in the middle of the night, the night before his big day, to help him be a driver....to fetch his family to ROM!!!!! He didn't give me details and the only thing he said was "tell you next day when i come and pick u up". Great detail there. And so...being a good sister and can't possibly reject the groom, i agreed.

The next morning, he slowly fed me the details and then i found myself waiting downstairs for his parents...that's when i saw Alex who had also been activated for this mission. Wow....didn't see him for almost 5 years and he still looked the same! And we had a little catch up there and sat on his Beemer for a while ,while waiting for the family to come down...its freaking HOT outside!

And so we reached the garden where the solumization was held... It was small but cosy enough...the decor was nice.... just a little humid. hahaha....and so the couple went through the motion of saying "i do". How sweet... And i'm so happy for him...!

and then i start to wonder when will my day come...... so typical right!?gosh...that's why i hate weddings! It'll induce all kind of thoughts..it'll make you feel the romance in the air...that will almost drown yourself in envy and especially so if you do not have a partner! and then it'll make u dream of fairy tales that never happen in reality!

Nonetheless...still happy for him...and i shall continue to hope for the day.... !@#$%^&*

Goodbye singies...Hello Mr and Mrs Chow!

ps: Stan...pass me the photos!!!!

:: F A T ::

DARN IT!!!
I FEEL F A T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i can feel my fats tingling and dangling around me!!!!
What the fuck!!!
Tried to cut down on my diet already...seems like its not enough!
Need to exercise but bloody hell where to find the bloody time?

Or am i just plain lazy and no one to motivate me...????

who wants to be my personal trainer????!?!?!?!?

DArn it!!! ~!@#$%^&*()+ can't stand the FAT me!!!

::Loving this way::

Tired...and i mean exhausted. The same thing kept recurring even though it has been said a thousand times. It's a vicious cycle, isn't it? Know a song...tt depicts what i feel...just ain't sure if that's what the other party feels... no...he doesn't coz he has complete no idea on what's going on. He doesn't even think there's a problem. Or rather, he couldn't be bothered coz he's been too busy loving himself; to even stop and realise that there's someone else who has been beside him all these while. Do i have to leave before he can treasure what he has? just like how we started? Have i been too insignificant in his world? no... he only have himself in his world.


Guy: I'm tired of watching me hurt you
I'm tired of being the teardrops on your face
I'm tired of loving this way

Gal: I'm tired of loving this way
I know your every weakness
I can find one in everything you say
I'm tired of loving this way

Guy: I'm tired of loving this way

Both:I'm not the one that you really need
I'm not the one in your dreams
I can see it in your eyes
This ain't the way it should feel
I don't know how we got here
Love's no longer blind
If that's just how it is
Can we go on like this
Oh, baby what do you say
I'm tired of loving this way
I'm tired of loving this way

Guy: I'll set your heart free
And if you're mine
You'll come flying back some day
But I'm tired of loving this way

Gal: I'm tired of loving this way
Well I'm taking you with me
Like a room in my heart
You will have your place
I'm tired of loving this way

Guy: I'm tired of loving this way

Both: I'm not the one that you really need
I'm not the one in your dreams
I can see it in your eyes
This ain't the way it should feel
I don't know how we got here
Love's no longer blind
If that's just how it is
Can we go on like this
Oh, baby what do you say
I'm tired of loving this way
I'm tired of loving this way

apple?

sometimes... i really wonder... if it is really so difficult to find someone that can fill that empty space that you've been waiting for all these years...
Some people say...Be contented with what you have. But what if that isn't what you think you want? Even though you tried hard to accept it or try to accept the idea of "be contented with what you have"?

And then there comes another that says..."If you don't close one door, the other won't be open." Is this bullshit or what? How do you know the other will open when you close one? How sure are you? And what if closing a door takes a part of your flesh? and we haven't talk about regrets yet.

So we go back to square one. There you are holding to one that hopefully can change for your sake or for the better of your lives... no matter how much effort, sacrifices or time you put in... it still didn't seem to work. Then when will you gonna wake up and realise that it's all bullshit?? Nothing's ever change for your sake. Only you yourself will see the effort you put in and the sacrifices you made. Only you yourself will do silly things for him. Only you yourself will try all your means to help him when he needs but gone when you needed his. Only you yourself will appreciate what you have done for whoever. Only you will be there for yourself when the cloud turns dark. no one will ever notice or even think great of you. For you are nothing in his eyes. Or perhaps he has more important things in his heart to fill you in. "not his fault" you may think. Or is that another excuse/bullshit? Or are you destined not to have someone who'll priortise you and think you are an apple of his eyes? is that your destiny? or is this what you want to succumb yourself to?

i dunno. i just know im not a superwoman.

Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table
And make sure that your coffee has it's sugar and cream
Your eggs are over easy, your toast done lightly
All that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me
Now you say your juice is sour, it used to be so sweet
And I can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me
We don't talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting me so deep

I got my pride, I will not cry
But it's making me weak
I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everythings OK
Boy I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional hugs as a token of love from you to me

I fought my way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for you
I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you
But when you get there you just tell me you're not hungry at all
You said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talk
You're like to think that I'm just crazy when I say that you've changed
I'm convinced I know the problem, you don't love me the same
You're just going through the motions and you're not being fair

Look into the corner of your mind
I'll always be there for you through good and bad times
But I can't be that superwoman that you want me to be
I give my everlasting love if you return love to me
If you feel it in your heart and you understand me
Stop right where you are
I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet
But you got to realize that you've got to be sweeter to me
I need love, I need trust, your love

:: IIIIIIIIII ::

that's the beauty of STRAIGHT.

yea...i have did it. straighteeeeeeeeeeeeeen it.
amazed by how a good hair cut can do wonders to one's emotions.

but i have not straighten my thoughts.....

confused... lost...puzzled......helpless.... fuck..... dun wish to think....yet i have to think....:'(
what the hell.

::AArGhh!!!::

Well well... the event of the week is none other than cutting my hair SHORT and perming it.... Wahhahaa~ i dunno if this looks NICE or WEIRD...if look OLD or STYLISH....DIFFERENT or UGLY.... I DUNNO!!! FUCK!!!!

Did i made the wrong move by perming it?
shld i just cut it short?
shld i cut it at all...
shld i perm it without cutting it short?

Goodness gracious! i dunno!!!!
What i know is everyday i must wake up earlier and style it.....

WHAT HAVE I DONE??!!?!?!??!!??!?!

From this ->
To this ->
To these!!! ->

::ahBRAcadeBRA::

Hmm...Today's blog is dedicated to him....ah BRA... my secondary school mate...the little shortie (in those days) whom i used to bullied....and always always always kicked his chair as he sat in front of me.
kekekke~

Yes, i met him just now for dinner... still the same old skinny him. i remembered we used to call him "Ah BRA" all the way from across the canteen or wherever.... and he'll always be embarassed...BY THE WAY, "BRA" means "GOOD" in swedish yea.... kekekke~
Ah Bra is also someone who'll dash out in a matter of seconds whenever he sees a cat coming.. hahahha~

Old habits never die yea....

Nice dinner we have there...but the portion is way too big for us.. I need to lose weight while he gotta put on more!! Eat more...bra!

Nice to know u r doing fine these days....well..im sure it'll only get better..NO worries...Will pray for u. :p

Hope to catch up with ah bra again.... this time...MY TREAT! :p

::sweeeet::

what a surprise and sweeet evening for me.
i was at a client's place when an unfamiliar number kept flashing on my mobile. It must be an overseas call, i thought.
I picked up the phone excitedly and suddenly, a matured voice was on the other side of the phone, looking for "Ms Val".

Just a split second, i recalled telling Anders in sweden to help me look for a job over at his side...."Couldn't be so fast bah??" i thought to myself.
And before my hopes got higher...they were all dashed by her giggles...... It's my AH BONG form shanghai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hhahahaa...and immediately, it blew my monday blues away.... hhahahha~ miss her so much!

After chatting for a while, we decided to web cam each other tonight.... THEN...another sweet surprise! I saw Jan!!! Jan from sweden was in shanghai too!! staying over at ah bong's place! Man! he lost 20kg!!! but he's still looked cute!! hahahhaha~ and yea,,,,miss him too,....thought we were from different school... but i'll always remember him as a nice, warm, friendly swede who played mahjong with us (and won us actually) and who love spicy food soooooo much!!! I remembered we cooked chicken curry for him.... and he loved it so much...that he kept eating though he was perspiring like mad... hahahhha~

those were those good'ol memories again!

so anyway....im gonna pen off now as im on web cam with ah bong and jan....while chatting with them over skype!! cool!! how technology makes wonders!!!!

my lovely swede, jan!
Jag saknar dig!!!

::Taurusification::

I was just mentioning...in fact, complaining to a good guy fren of mine about another guy.
Effectively, i was complaning to a Taurus about another fellow Taurus, whom i have an unusual love-hate connections with.
What a startling find.
I was about to get taurusified.

Im getting to know this taurus better thru another taurus...the way a typical taurus works, behind those weird, complex, toxicated, complicated, strange, attitude, dun-give-a-damn, cocky, one-of-a-kind tissues, membranes, blood, cells, whatever in their head. I was even glad to know that my taurus ain't the ONLY rare find in the world...there is another someone who is suffering the fate as me. So im not the only "lucky" one on earth. hahahha~ sorry mokie... perhaps ur girl and i would make great pals?? kekeke...

But anyway, i was alarmed at how these 2 tauruses shared similar behaviour and thinking...and i thought one is just bad enough...why are there two of them or even MORE!? hahhaha~ however, i'm still glad that i have someone to talk to regarding that weird creature in my museum. at least, they seem to read each other's mind. and i can benefit from it? hahaha~ show me some taurus in you, mokie. i bet i can take it....or perhaps i should learn a few tricks from ur girl? or let me know the secrets to a taurus? ahhahaha~ with an aries spirit in me, i dun believe i can't overcome this. or was it a velviie spirit in an aries? heh! im just as stubborn as those bulls! both has horns, dun they?

before i left, he whispered a "good luck"....makes me wonder if that's a blessing or a warning...coming from a true blue taurus himself.

::motocross trip::

::Project FirstLighters::

Finally... i got to meet my fellow crazy FirstLighters after quite some time! Had a good time eating and catching up with one another.... and...erm....of coz not forgetting our infamous photo-taking!!!
Lotsa memories during those days in Kampong Cham, Cambodia flooded my mind...The days that we spent living under one kampong hut still remains vividly in my mind. How we spent half a year in Singapore preparing for the expedition...building the connection and bond that we still have as of today. And then how we spent our days in the olden style...no electricity...no taps...no proper toilet....but lotsa fun, sweat and meaningful experiences.

i can still remember how we cooked for 30pax under the red hot sun...how we washed the veggies, prepared the dishes using charcoal... And then how we washed the dishes using minimal water as we did not have enough water! And then how we do our laundry..... hahaha..manual dry cleaners some more...kekkeke! of coz not forgetting our core duties! to build the classroom! well..what can i say? i understood how to build the walls now!!! how to mix the cement...layer it with bricks....and then furnish it with paint...what a process!!

All these sacrifices are nothing in order to build better lives for people who are truely in need. The kids there are so adorable...and innocent and some with big aspirations! I wonder how are they doing now...Makara, Sai Ha and Thu Na...those little things that they did...touched and warmed my heart. Hope they are doing well...

and till now...whenever i look up and see the stars hanging in the dark sky..... it always remind me of the same sky i saw in Kampong Cham.....except...there were lotsa of shooting stars. unforgetable memories....

~ making a diffference in people's lives ~

Our kampiong hut!


Our classroom in progress and pumping water from ground!
Thu Na, Sai Ha and Makara!!
The completed classroom!!!

::midnight movie::

::a day at work::

:: my convocation :: 9th July 2005

on the 9th July, i attended my convocation in NUS UCC. Finally...after 3 years of slogging...no wait...after 20 over years of studying....i finally graduated not just from uni but from all schools!! As i was sitting down watching the my fellow mates up the stage, streams of past memories flowed back...the fun, the laughter, the sweat, the anger, the frustration, the helplessness.....everything.... just seemed to happen only yesterday.
A mixture of happiness and sadness i felt. Stepping into aother stage of my life makes me feel excited and motivated...dreaming of my future, painting the pictures just the way i want it. Yet... leaving the good'ol memories seems to be rather painful.

i guess...life goes on....take care my fellow mates..... those slogging days in the darn NUS...shall never forget....
*peace*

my previous posts from xanga blog...

...friends & i...












...the night at balaclava...




::just velviie::